Saturday, December 27, 2008N
2008 is indeed an eventful year for me.
Being in a graduating year, everyone's last goal is the O levels. Inevitably, stress befalls everyone. The main lesson everyone had to learn is how to control stress, making sure it doesnt engulf us. Yet, I failed once. Falling into the trap of stress, health deteriorated at an increasing speed. Be it physically or mentally, it was a torture. However, due to this obstacle I faced, it dawned onto me how blessed I am. Friends and teachers who do their best to help me when a relapse occur, who are always worried for my health and most importantly, who believe that I can overcome this. Proudly, I can say, I succeeded!
Stepping into the lap of revision period, it's time to wave Kranji St John goodbye. Having done our best in Zone FAC 2008 and the CAA, the '08 batch of NCOs prepared to step down. Holding on with a chief commisioner badge, Adult cap crest, staff seageant rank, shiny boots and a brain full of knowledge and skills, the NCOs had finally POP-ed. I can foresee KSJ bright future for the seniors have left behind their experience, their knowledge, their achievements. With all this and the bind created between everyone, we shall hit for more miracles.
Ending a relationship I treasured was the worst decision made. Like what most said, forgetting somone you love takes a lifetime. It was hard and terrible. Although friends were there to help me through, I still felt different. Afterall, it was once mine since secondary 2. It was still a hard-to-let-go period. However, if it is yours, it will be yours. Through cross-referencing of sources, I never knew that person could be so underhanded. Maybe this would start another wave of bitching in blogs and conflict, yet I really got disgusted by the name and the person herself. On and off, the hirlpool just circulated, involving more and more people to take sides. Of course, her friends sided her. I dont know what version of story she told them, but... nevermind. It's all past. As I mentioned, what's yours is yours. In the end, the reverse button is pressed and everything gets back to their original place, their meant-to-be. now, if the person is hoping for everything to go wrong like the way she 'warned' both of us, I'm here to say we are perfectly fine and happy.
Seperation is bent to occure in everyone's life. Being the part and parcel of life, graduation is on the way. Saying I wont miss this school is a lie, for every single place left memories for me. I went back to the school during some days in december. Climbing the stairs to every single level brings the smile back to me. The days we had together... I will remember everyone, well not everyone though. But, I'm still grateful to everyone, be it people I loved or hated, you guys really made me feel blessed and fortunate to be loved, to be protected, to be accepted by my friends and teachers.
Every seperation brings about courage to face and to accept. In the midst of preparation for O levels, I had to face the departure of my most beloved grandfather. the day he got wheeled into SICU, he never had the change to come out healthy. Worst still, his health detoriated readily. One day, we received a call, saying that he might be unable to make it. Rushing down with fear and uneasiness around, everyone reached. Everyone gathered around his bedside. Knowng how much he suffered, the adults persuaded him to leave peacefully. With assurance that everything would be well taken care of, he left. Witnessing him losing every signs of living is the worst for all. Everyone cried. Not like those in the dramas, but silently, expressing our unwillingness for his depature.
for all i experienced in 2008, i grew.
and i know, 2009 will be a great year.
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